Denette615 Red Putussibau calmes my brain

[KratomBry]

Sorry about this book, if it's too long, feel free to skip to the last paragraph.

To start, I've been lurking on Double m, and reading multiple hundreds of posts for over half a year, but I'm not much of a contributor. I'm not really qualified to give an accurate review do to the fact that when I started taking kratom ~3/4 of a year ago, I went from ~3-4 grams 3+- times a day, rapidly to 6g to 10g doses many times a day (I have an accurate scale and every dose is weighed and logged. I am now between 24g and 32g a day and I don't really feel any effects besides some increased stimulation. I have read everything there is to read and I understand the reason my lack of "feeling effects". I KNOW HOW I "SHOULD" BE TAKING IT and I am trying to start a tolerance break. I have ingested many (many is an understatement) psychoactive compounds over the past 30 years and this rapid escalation in dose has been the story of my life, I have no will power. "I USED TA DO A LITTLE BUT THE LITTLE WOULDN'T DO SO THE LITTLE GOT MORE AND MORE, JUST KEEP TRYIN' TA GET A LITTLE BETTER SAID A LITTLE BETTER THAN BEFORE" (Guns N Roses)

All of that being said, I originally was buying from Botanical Bunny, probably 4 of 5 orders (and still will again in the future) and recall a slight mood lift from a few of their strains. Usually buying greens with a few whites and only 1 red from BB. Then a couple of months ago, just for a change I tried Denette615. I bought a few greens and whites and thought I felt a mood boost from his green milk, but with my rapidly growing tolerance and taking so much, It's kinda hard to tell for sure. Just a week ago I ordered another five strains from Denette. Included in the order was a 100g bag of Red Putussibau.

Here's the point of this writing. My "natural state", is slightly "amped up". I'm no bundle of energy, I'm actually really lazy, lazier than most. But while being lazy, I find my brain running a little too fast. No ground breaking, deep thinking, I can be mindlessly watching tv, with no real "thinking" going on. Or mindlessly taking a shower, and my brains going 100 MPH in neutral. Most of the day, whether actively thinking about something or mindlessly daydreaming, I am unconsciously humming to my self. Not a particular tune, but sometimes. But it's fast humming. I've had an ex girlfriend get annoyed at my humming. It' not relaxed hum, when I'm internally humming a mile a minute. I don't take them very often (once or twice a month at most), but if I take a benzodiazepine like Valium or Xanax, It calms me and STOPS my "nervous humming".

OK, now the point. When I took Denetts Red Putussibau, I noticed it stopped my over active brain and nervous humming and relaxed me. I wasn't expecting it, the possibility never crossed my mind. Nothing except a benzidiazapine has ever done that. Over the past ~4 days I've tried it 3 more times with that same red with the same results. It doesn't make me sleepy or tired, just calm. Obviously your mileage may vary.

Edit, I just wanted to say that the internal humming that I do isn't mentally debilitating or anything like that. I've been doing it so long it's just part of me. I'll say it again, Denette's Red Putussibau didn't "dull my thoughts" but calmed my racing brain down to what I would consider a normal brain. I'm not qualified to suggest it might be helpfull for anxiety or nerviousos but it's cheap enough to be worth a try. Once again your results may very. I have no affiliation with Denette and have paid pull price for everything Iv'e ordered. Thanks, Bryan